Saturday, August 29, 2009

After a short haitus and a computer virus, it is time to return to the wonderful world of blogging. Here's an update on my life as of late.

Sarah, our new roommate, moved in a couple of weeks ago. She's awesome and so much fun!!! We've been decorating up a storm. The new photograph hanging on the wall is beckoning me to jump in, Mary Poppins' style, and explore Paris in the fall. Oh, how I would love to walk, hand-in-hand (if I had someone's hand to hold), down the tree-lined pathway covered in a quilt of fallen leaves. Autumn is most definitely my favorite of the 4 seasons. The colors, the crisp, sometimes biting air, sweaters, hot chocolate, conversations by the fireplace.

Work is work. I keep feeling that God has put me here on the earth to do more than work monday through friday, nine to five. At the same time, I don't want to discount the fact that He has me where I am right now for a reason. However, if it were up to me, I'd sell all I own, buy a VW van, pack my sleeping bag, guitar and camera, and travel across this great country. I'd stop to take pictures of God's amazing creation. I'd write poetry about the rustling leaves and purple mountains majesty. I'd play my guitar and sing at the top of my lungs as the sun set over distant hills.

Bri came to visit last week. It was SO GOOD to see her. While I'm excited to see where God is taking her, I feel like part of my heart is missing when she is away. I feel blessed beyond belief that the Lord has given me such amazing friends. If only they would stay put, so we could all hang out more than once every 3 months. :)

Thursday, August 13, 2009

When did 'friend' become a verb?

Friend as a noun: Leah is my friend.

Friend as an adverb/adjective: Chelsey is friendly.

And now, ladies and gentlemen, for your viewing pleasure, friend as a verb: You friended her mom? On Facebook? How does that even work?

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Oh, what a night!

I'm deinitely enjoying this break in the weather. I'll take cloud-covered skies over thousand degree weather any day. A couple of nights ago, however, I sensed a storm was-a-brewin'. So I decided to light a candle, in case the power went out.

There I was, sitting, lighting a match, when - SNAP! The match broke, and conveniently fell on my bare leg. I freaked. I brushed the flames off my leg and onto the bathroom rug. Then, like the madwoman that I am, turned on the sink faucet, cupped my hands underneath, and dumped heaps of water on that little flame. Once the fire was out, I cried. Hard. For a ridiculously long time.

After I stopped crying, I tried to fall asleep, but was suddenly awoken with the urge to regurge... all the food I had ate before church. Suffice it to say, I may never eat salsa or string cheese again. Just the thought...

I spent the rest of the night curled up in a ball on the bathroom floor. I covered myself with bathroom towels since I was too crippled to get a blanket from my bed. Vomiting is not something I enjoy doing, but I seemed to be an all-star at the sport last night.

The next morning I woke up and went to the doctor. They did an abdominal x-ray and decided to refer to me to a Gastro doc (it may take weeks to get in). I'm trying to stay positive and think that everything will be okay, but part of me is a little worried because I have been having so many issues that don't seem to be resolving.

Lucky for me, Chelsey drove 3 hours to play nurse and take care of me. God sure blessed me with amazing friends. I spent most of the weekend lounging around watching movies which is really really out of the ordinary for me. I'm still not feeling too swell, but there's no need to throw a pity party, right?

And on a much more exciting note, our new roommate finally moved in after months of anticipation. So exciting. She is super cool - she plays the guitar and seems to have a great sense of humor - what else does a person need? :)

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

If life has background music, playing your song, I've gotta be honest, I tried to escape you, but the orchestra plays on...

It never fails. I go to the grocery in a semi-contemplative mood and as soon as I walk in the door, my ears are bombarded with sappy, cheesy love songs. The first time this happened, I tried to ignore Boyz II Men as they were singing "I'll Make Love to You" while I compared the sugar content of different cereals. The second time, however, I started to wonder if someone @ Albertson's had it out for my mental well-being. I usually love Boyz II Men, just not that particular song. And lately I'm not in the mood for love songs - no matter how happy or sad.

I go to the grocery store alone and I leave alone. And I'm okay with that, really. But honestly, I'm at the store because I need to buy food, not be reminded of all the pseudo-happy people in their mediocre relationships. Sing me a song about the amazing sale on boneless chicken breasts or how really great the orange juice is on aisle 9, not your sex life or lackthereof.

Tonight I decided to try Safeway instead of Albertsons, thinking I would have better luck. Bad idea. First off, the produce selection is horrible and second, Bryan Adams was belting out "Please Forgive Me." Oh Bryan, you don't really mean that.. My cynicism strikes again.

Maybe the heart of the issue is that I'm secretly longing for someone to sing me a song - and mean what they say. Maybe I'm tired of reading books about all the great things I can do as a single. Maybe I just want someone to fall, really fall, in love with me - and stay that way forever. I KNOW KNOW KNOW that only God can satisify my deepest longings and desires. This isn't new information; it's been engrained in my head for as long as I can remember and it still doesn't change the fact that I desperately want to meet the man that I will spend the rest of my life with. God created man - and woman - in his image. He saw that it was not good for man to be alone, so He gave him a helper. What do I have, but peace that God is in control and that He will orchestrate an amazing love story when it's the right time. Until then...

Monday, August 3, 2009

This is all for You!

Why do we waste so much time on meaningless things? Why do we say that God is our everything, that we give Him everything, when in reality, we have a tight deathgrip on many, many things in our lives? What are we so afraid of?

God has promised to never leave nor forsake us. He has promised to be faithful to complete the good work He began in us. He has promised to work all things for good to those who love Him. You love Him, right? You trust him, right? Then why do you keep holding on to things He has asked to give to Him. God will never lead you astray. Instead He will guide and direct you. HE WILL KEEP YOU IN PERFECT PEACE IF YOUR MIND IS FOCUSED ON HIM. So stop worrying. Have no fear. The creator of the universe has it all under control. Here's your chance to lay all your burdens at His feet. Here's your opportunity to cast your cares on the Lord. He will sustain you. He will never permit the righteous to be moved.

If you are not in perfect peace right now, than maybe you are doing something that is out of His will. Or maybe He is using this time to cause you to draw nearer and nearer to Him. Continue seeking His guidance and you will not be led astray. Take hold of the truth that He is impressing on your heart. He loves you so much and wants to bless you, but you have to be willing to truly surrender everything to Him.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Todd Lake, not for the faint of mosquito repellent

What started out as a stroll along pristine Todd Lake, proved to be a trek through the mud and a battle with mosquitoes.

I’ve read about Todd Lake in hiking guides and checked out pictures on the internet. Visually, we could not have asked for a more photo-worthy hike. The water was still, the morning sun rose over mountains, illuminating the solitaire kayaker. The meadow was full of wildflowers – purples, reds and yellows exploded against the deep green of the dewy, morning grass. From a distance, all was well.

We were greeted by a hiker listening to roaring, obnoxious music – a bitter contrast to the silence we are so accustomed to. We opted to go the opposite way of the obnoxious hiker went and started our journey around Todd Lake.

The mosquitoes must have gotten wind of our arrival, because no sooner had we started to hike, they were swarming viciously. “We should’ve brought the bug spray,” Dad said, as I scurried past him.

“Eh, we’ll be okay. We’re tough,” I tried to sound convincing, but it came out sounding more like a question.

We hiked at a steady pace, stopping only momentarily to take pictures of Mt. Bachelor rising over the tree line. This was our first mistake. Faster than I could take a picture, 2 mosquitoes attached themselves to my middle and ring finger. They were relentless, despite my incessant swatting. After that, I decided that I would have to be much quicker when taking pictures.

After a few minutes of hiking in the woods, we came to the meadow that had once looked so beautiful. Up close, however, we could see the grass was intermingled with bouts of mud. Muddy mud interwoven with small streams. This isn’t your grandma’s mud. This was the real deal. What’s a hike if you don’t get dirty, though, I thought to myself. [The answer: a stroll.]

Despite the factors warring against us, all I could do was laugh at the irony and our lack of preparedness. We continued onward [we had no other choice]. If we slowed down for one second, the mosquitoes would attack. If we tried to hurry, we’d most likely end up face planting in the mud. Neither of those things sounded like fun. So we walked… until we reached dry ground. Ah, relief. Dirt - stability in its finest form. We meandered again through the trees and ultimately found ourselves back at our starting point, the car, where we were once again greeted by obnoxious hiker blaring his obnoxious country music.

We loaded our stuff in the trunk and proceeded to drive away from the parking lot, but as we started to reverse, creepy obnoxious hiker man tapped on the driver’s side window. Oh Lord, I prayed, please don’t let him try to kill us. There is no one around to see us. No one will notice we are missing for hours.

“Your trunk’s open,” he smiled as if he were really trying to say something else. I hopped out of the car and shut the trunk and hiker man came around the back of our car. “Eh, you got a lighter or a match or something I can use?” Something you can use for what, I’m thinking. “Nope, sorry.” And that was that.

We're having a heat wave!

What's up with the incessant heat? It's gotta be nearing 200 degrees outside. It's days like this that make me yearn for the bitterly cold days of Winter. I can see it now - me, bundled up in a down comforter, sipping hot chocolate out of a large coffee mug, wearing flannel pajamas (because who doesn't love flannel at any time of the year?), longing to be warmed by a fireplace, shivering in the cold because I can't afford heat since I used all my money paying for the A/C in the summer.

You'd think I'd be eating ice cream for dinner to cool myself down, but all day I've been craving tortellin's and keilbasa. So that's what I made for dinner. I really don't enjoy eating alone. Food is meant to be shared. It's too bad all my friends are sharing food with a significant other or eating in a different state.

Lately I've decided that I really like grocery shopping. It's so much more enjoyable when you actually use the food that you buy, as opposed to letting it sit in the fridge and mold.